It was pain.. Too much pain I have to go through. We've been quarreling, yes I know. And we both dont wanna admit our mistakes. But still, I dont know what I've done that keeps us fighting. I mean I sacrifices, givess you all my hopes and love. And I hate it when people take it for granted. And another thing is that, love, is not just about romance. I mean its more important to have trust, understanding, commitment and Cares.

Now, all Im thinking is that, Im tired of all this quarreling and getting back together again and again. I just wanna be happy and be in the most sincere of relationship. Its hard fer me to let go of him. Fucking hard. I mean, I dont even think of breaking up, I just want him to change for the better.

I just dont wanna think of what gonna happen in the furute. All I want is to be happy as long as I can still be. So what Im thinking now is that, maybe I should just forgive him or else Im still the one whos facing the hurt alone. I cannot be without him for now. Everyone makes mistakes, not once, not twice but many times till we finally learned from each mistakes.

Therefore, I believe that Im still trying to learn the arts of love. Im still young, yes I agree. So everything is to be blame on me for being so gatal to have a bf. haha. But its Okay, cause I think for now, its the best I could do to make myself happy and also hymm.

Loving eu is never easy, but missing eu is the hardest~

Ayys`